I am just a small town Mississippi Girl living in Tennessee trying to figure out what comes next. I have to be honest and tell you that very little about my life today is what I dreamed about when I was 21 but then again back then I assumed I’d marry either Rob Lowe or Tom Cruise and spend my time either spending their money or giving it away while we aimlessly jetsetted around the globe.
Seriously, if you’d asked me as I departed college what my life would be like by 41, I would’ve assumed several teen aged children and a husband approaching middle age and 20 years of raising a family and building a life together behind us. I would’ve been hard pressed to imagine anything else. Beyond wife and mother, it was all pretty much blank.
So here I am today; living the life I never wanted. While it’s true that I’m nobody’s wife and nobody’s Mom, it’s also true I have a great life filled with things I didn’t anticipate. I didn’t ever conceive of being a ‘career woman’ and yet I have a career that I love. I’ve been to great places and met amazing people. I imagine I’ve laughed more and cried less than most. So, whether it’s the life I wanted, it’s the life I’ve got. I’m learning to acknowledge the things I love, deal honestly with things I don’t and find contentment with the rest.
I am still learning that there is a God who loved me before I knew how to love myself and had an amazing plan for my life before I had the courage to dream for myself. I sometimes feel guilty as if I should’ve been penalized somehow for being a late bloomer, a daydreamer and a slacker who didn’t ‘reach my potential’ and yet through God’s grace and mercy, things turned out alright.
This blog is just me thinking out loud as I struggle to live more like Jesus and become the woman I was created to be. In other words it’ll be simultaneously silly and deep, challenging and ridiculous, random and redundant, opinionated and questioning but hopefully also honest, encouraging, thought provoking and ultimately God honoring.
Oh yeah . . . I am taking a new ‘path’ in my career journey. I just started a new job with Word Music Publishing working with worship songwriters and connecting those songs to people in various ways but ultimately always for the glory of God.
If you are so inclined you can follow me on TWITTER: AMabry. But even more, I hope you are inclined to share with me stories from your journey. I look forward to hearing them.